my breastfeeding journey

hi all long time no write.. anak pun dah 5 bulan lebih dah..hihiih

btw today's story is about my breastfeeding journey

unlike others, im not so lucky about the breastfeeding part..

as early as 5 days, my son had been given formula milk 4 spoon because my milk had not produce yet and he is crying like crazy..mum cant even had a rest.

after having very painful massage from mak bidan, the milk finally let down..

i pumped out and gave to my son to decrease his level of jaundice..

mula2 keluar kolestrum je.. berebut bagi kt anak.. n jaundis amar ar razi sekejap je.. seminggu je dah baik..

tapi mata dah jadi panda sbb anak nangis2222 je.. minum susu x kenyang2..  mama dia langsg x dapat tido. bila dah kronik sangat mak ambil dan bancuhkan siket susu formula.terus dia diam

masa tu tertanya2 jgk.. kenapa?
n then after 1-2 week i managed to pump my breastmilk. and just 50ml?????
no wonder my son always cried and bergayut sepanjang masa..

took   a lot of food that can boost my milk production.. tell me what have to eat? lobak putih-done. pegaga done.. drink a lot of water- done. took lactation milk. took shaklee done..tp semua tak berhasil sangat..

anak plak meragam je.. tak tahan sangat..titik2 air mata masa kene bg susu fm..

dalam masa sebulan tu langsg x sampai hati nak bg sendiri susu botol... so my sis yg tlg bg n i run into the room..

at the same time, i tried pump as many as can to encourage my brain n my body to produce milk..

in 20minit i managed to get 30ml for every 1 and half hour.. thats only 1 oz ok. and my son dah dua bulan..mana cukup..n amar ar razi dah refuse nak direct latch ngn mama dia. mungkin lambat susu let down n siket.. tp i did prepare the milk whenever he sleep.. i rushed to pump the milk. n after he woke up i gave him 1 oz of breastmilk and 1 oz of formula milk. my routine was the same for my entire 3 months of maternity leave.. n amar ar razi is slowly want to latch directly with me.. that's a good sign so i can make sure my milk is always there..

untill now.. i still pump my milk out walaupun dah masuk keje.. now i can get max 8 oz for 2 session. alhamdullilah.  a little is better than nothing.. at least i tried so hard to give breastmilk to my son walaupun tak exclusive..

i put my son to his babysitter near to my work place and gave 2 bottles of 3 oz each.. and kalau ada aktiviti petang i give another one bottle of 2 oz.. sbb i just can produce max 8 oz.. yg selebihnya akan top up susu fm..

selagi berdaya selagi tu la my precious milk will go into your stomach dear.. even only a little!

my traumatic labor experience - episode 2

pukul 7 get ready.. dah bersiap2.. check barang2.. bawak air, bawak kurma, bawak majalah, check ade x buku pink, GL. beg ibu ready n beg anak pun ready..

mak n abah pun nk ikut jgk. dah bgtau just stay at home, sbb nnt tak tau pkul berapa dapat ward n xtau bila akan bersalin.. tp diorg nk ikot jgk..

7.30 gerak ke hospital serdang..

sampai kaunter pendaftaran, bagtau nk daftar n ckp edd sy harini.. dtg nk serah diri...

tak lama tu dia panggil masuk.. n screening balik i.e check blood pressure, urin, ctg and vaginal examination..

lama sangattt tunggu sbb tinggal doc pelatih je.. doc lain ada case plak..

bab VE tu mmg lemah la.. doc pelatih pn bkn mahir sgt.. n she says still 1 cm.. ok fine!
pastu dia dtg utk pasang bnde kt tgn. sblm dia cucuk tnye utk apa ni..dia kte awk ade gdm nnt doc nk msuk air, nk amik drh etc2.. ok rela jela. n of course disebabkn kurg mahir. sakit giler dia cucuk n still x jumpa urat darah. banjir jgk katil ngn drh yg meleleh2. aku plk dh jerit sakit..lps 3x trial br dia dpt urat tu.. pastu nurse dtg. tnye knp pasang dah bende tu. dia kata bende tu blh 2 hari je..kite tak tau patient ni bersalin bila.. kalau lambat nnt kene bukak balik.. argh bila dengar gerammmmnye..

doc pelatih tu suruh tunggu nnt doc senior dtg.. lama jgk tunggu..time tu dah pukul 10 dah.. keluar kejap jumpa husb, mak ngn abah n persuade diorg utk balik rehat kt umah je.. sbb lama lg nk tunggu ni..diorg plk dah tersengguk2.. pastu abah setuju utk balik tp bkn balik shah alam. pergi rumah abg kt puchong... mujur abang ada kt umah masa tu...

dalam pkul 11 lebih kene panggil. doc senior tu nk check.. dia buat VE.. again???? n dia check eh dah 2 cm la.. ok boleh tolak masuk ward..  sms husb bgtau.. n dia pun otw ke hosp dah..

pukul 12 baru dipanggil utk sedia masuk ward.. nurse pesan kt husband utk bawak beg ibu n anak n boleh la masuk ward sbb skrg dah waktu melawat..

husb kemaskan barang n aku pun rehat2 je.. sambil tu kitorg sembang2 je..

pkul 1 lebih rasa lapar plak.. husb kata dia balik amik brg n mknn kt rumah.. i say ok..

pukul 2 nurse panggil pergi bilik rawatan..and VE again! arghhhh..

kalini doc cina perempuan buat. agak kasar.. she says dah 3 cm.. tak perlu induce! yeay..

pukul 3 lebih husb dtg balik bawak makanan n mak abah.. makan puas2..

pukul 5 lebih husb mtk permission utk balik hantar mak abah n prepare utk bukak puasa..
ok jela.. sbb diri ni pn x dela rasa sakit2 pn..

kejap2 nurse dtg check bp la check contraction la.. diorg tnye berpa kali perut menengang dlm sejam.. aku pn x reti nk kire.. mujur la diorg kirekan..diorg pn risau aku duk diam je kat katil..siap tny puan ni jenis org yg tahan sakit ke.. yela.. mak pun dah pesan kalu sakit jgn jerit tak tentu arah.. selawat istighfar jela..huhu

tp bila tgh malam tu ada la rasa sakit sangat selang 5 minit.. masih boleh thn.. yg best contraction ni dia sakit pastu hilang..ada selang  masa n bole rehat kjp..

menangis jugak masa tu..hahahahhaha sbb sakit kot..

awal pagi tekan button panggil nurse.. bgtau saya sakit la. doc pelatih dtg lagi n she says still 3 cm.. dia kata tp kalau still x thn sakit bgtau kita bg ubt tahan sakit k..

nurse masuk silih berganti..check itu ini.. contraction pn terasa sgt dah..

pukul 11 lbih nurse panggil lg ke bilik rawatan.. mesti nak ve lg ni..haha

kali ni doc cina lelaki yg  buat.. dia wat xdela kasar sgt... n he says dah 4cm. boleh tolak masuk labor room. yeayyyyy..

msg husb bgtau kjp lg dia nk tolak masuk labor room. husb plak tunggu kt bawah, waktu melawat pukul 12..
tak lama tu dtg mknn tghari. yey smpt makan dlu.. nurse suh makan kenyang2..dah siap panggil dia.. dia nak masuk ubat kt punggung..

dah siap mkn, pastu dpt ubat kt punggung x smpi 5 saat berlari ke toilet.. haha berkesan tol ubat. husb semacam x percaya. dia siap melawak  lg.. kalau mcm tu dia nak gak la ubat tu..hahhaa

pukul 1 baru masuk labor room.. husb plak masuk kejap n dia bgtau nk amik kakak kt komuter serdang..

duk la situ di treat mcm2 dgn nurse.. belt ctg die pasang, masukkan drip air.. tahla pe bende diorg wat tah.. tak lama tu doc pelatih india masuk.. nk buat ve. dia check 3cm. tanya kt atas td berapa cm.. jawab 4 cm.. apape jela labu.. pukul 2. husb dtg. pastu doc dtg. husb kene keluar tunggu dalam satu bilik.. sempat dia tido kt situ!

doc tu suh buat VE. doc india tu ckp dah buat. dapat 3 cm. doc tu marah plak.. you dah buat ve kt patient n x buat ARM. why should u wasted glove sdgkn u tau glove x cukup kan.. hahaha sedap kene sedas dua..

doc tu ckp sorry ye puan, kene ajar siket doc baru ni..
then doc tu dgn seriusnya ckp buat ARM skrg (pecahkan air keetuban)

x sakit pun, tiba2 rasa air hangat keluar..
 x lama tu husb pun masuk setelah puas dia tidooo
nurse masuk. air ketuban dah pecah, akan rasa lg sakit ni.. sy cucuk ubat bius kt punggung ni. akan rasa mengantuk, tidur je.. kalau sakit lg..sedut gas ok..

mmg lepas cucuk tu rasa ngantuk je...tido.. tp bila contraction ada akan tersedar.. awal2 x sedut gas lg sbb blh thn lg..

pkul berapa tah, doc kejut ckp dah 5 cm ye puan..
zzzz tido balik..

husb masuk balik.. mmg tido bgn just nk ckp sakit2.. husb pn bg gas utk sedut... dah ok tido balik..
tp lama2 mmg sangat sakit.. sampai bende psg kt tgn pn tercabut 3x. nurse gigih la pasang balik. dr tgn kanan ke tgn kiri..hahaha. haru..yelah dah sakit mana nk ingt ape..

pukul 6, nurse masuk check ve. dia bgtau dah 8cm. tp puan jgn teran lg.. nnt rahim bengkak dia kate.. ok xyah teran..sambung tidooo..haha

pukul 6.20 rs nk buang air, suruh husb tlg panggilkan doc.. nurse tu masuk lg..bgtahu dah 9 cm.. jgn teran lg.. ok..

pukul 6.45 mmg dah tak tahan sgt2 dahhhhh.. husb panggilkan doc lg..

pukul 7 baru diorg segerombolan masuk. yeay dah crowning.. (kepala dah nmpak dah)
siap nurse tu melawak. encik tgk ni dah boleh wat cukur jambul dah.. hihihi..

mula la episod teran meneran.. abis teran dah, sampai abis nafas, kepala keluar masuk keluar masuk.. mana tak stress u oll. nangis dah masa tu. nurse ckp jgn nangis. nnt baby stress..

pulun teran lg.. doc ckp oh br 20 minit. tak lama tu zass kene gunting siket.. x rasa apa2 pn. nmpk gunting berdarah je. teran lg sekali. haaa lega dah keluar..

x smpt tepuk dah nangis dulu.. pastu keluarkn uri plak.. doc suh dehem2.. then keluar..

siap azankan nurse suruh husb boleh keluar utk berbuka n belikan mknn utk isteri jgk..

lepas tu la traumatic siket,, ada cebisan uri tercarik..nurse tgk byk blood clot..bila kluarkn msih byk drh.. doc pun berkampung n kerumun. kaki kene ikat kat tiang. doc seluk kluarkn drh,,then ada nurse amik mesin scan n scan perut sambil doc seluk smpi atas rahim.

sakitnye tuhan yg tahu..lg skit dr bersalin.. doc suruh sedut gas.. x de kesan mana punnn..

lpstu doc bius tmpt kene gunting dan mula operasi jahit menjahit... xde rasa apa pun cuma ada rasa la benang keluar masuk..

settle sume tu.. aku rest dlm labur room utk dipantau sbb 600 ml jgn darah dah hilang. bp aku dipantau.. samapila pukul 12 baru tolak masuk ward n husb pn br sampai masa tu..

dia dapat waran utk masuk ward bantu isteri..

so dia la tlg aku papaph ke toilet, tukarkan pad.. mmg masa tu ting tong, memang x blh jalan sbb rasa nk pitam..

siap semua dia tinggalkan ak baring kt katil n baby ada kt sebelah..

n this mark my new motherhood life.. alhamdulillah..

my traumatic labor experience - episode 1

salam.. berkesempatan juga nak share my experience. anak pun dah tido. mari kite mengsarang ayat..

dr 37w 5d dah mula rasa sakit2. tp sbb first child mmg xde experience.. puas tanya kakak n kawan2.. satu hari tu rasa perut menengang 10 minit sekali. so bgtahu husband.. malam tu lepas berbuka kitorang pun gerak pergi ke hospital serdang untuk check..

sampi kat bahagian dewan bersalin kitorg pun daftar...
masuk dalam untuk buat screening test.
first check blood pressure.. lepas tu check urin.. lepa tu kene baring kat katil and nurse pasang alat ctg utk monitor heartbeat baby n contraction.. 20 minit jgk dia pasang belt tu. tak senang duduk. rimas baring terlentang lama2.. katil sebelah bunyi ctg dia menakutkan. mungkin dah nak bersalin kot..

lepastu doc dtg n bgtau nak check bukaan. erk. ni ke yg slalu org canangkan sakit2 tu..

doc tu try sembang2 sebelum buat vaginal examination tu.. ms smgt sembang2 dia terus masukkan jari. terdiam kejap. sepanjang godek2 tu tahan nafas selama mana yg boleh utk kurangkan sakit..

dia bgtahu bukaan baru 1 cm

lps tu dtg doc lain nak scan perut.. dia scan sume parameter n estimate weight baby. dia kate x besar sgt la, dalam 3.0 plus2 kg je
 ( sbb saya ni berisiko gdm - kencing manis sms mengandung)

so doc discharge utk balik rumah n tunggu bila turun darah atau air ketuban..doc ckp utk anak pertama. bukaan tu progressnya mungkin mengambil msa beberapa hari atau berminggu2..

at 39w 2d ada rasa sakit2 yg agak kerap.. decide nak pergi hospital lepas sekolah..

sebelum ke hosp bkk pose dlu..ponteng sehari dah..uhuh

sampai hosp, daftar n masuk bilik screening nk buat prosedur yg sama..

do check masih 1 cm! what the... argh stress.. xde progress ke..pnt berjalan, turun naik tangga n exeercise..

doc pesan 5 hari nnt kalau x bersalin lg kene dtg pagi2 utk masuk ward n induce k..

ok doc! huhu

menjalani kehidupan mcm biasa.. lusa  nya sakit pinggang mcm sengugut yg dhsyt n lepas tu check turun darah n lendir coklat banyak.. cuak.. tp tak sakit pape pun. hold je la dlu..

malam sblm tidur pn ada lg keluar lendir tu..
pagi esok masa sahur pn ada lg..
tp xde rasa sakit pun
maybe effect kene seluk kot..
or jalan dah mula bukak siket2..
apa2 pun tunggu je la major sign..


tunggu punya tunggu xde apa2 pun.. sakit dtg dan hilang mcm tu je.. mcm main cak2 je.. hahaha..

sampai la 26hb july. hari terakhir bekerja. gigih dtg kerja smpai ke titisan terakhir tu.. hahaha.. bawak la perut ke hulu hilir.

27hb malam mak n abah sampai shah alam nak teman anak dia ni..huhuh

sampai la hari2 yang ditunggu2.. nervouse

july 28th and yet no sign of labour..

lepas sahur kitorg gerak gi hospital..kang takot lambat2 katil penuh plak..

to be continued.....

anugerah 10 ramadhan terakhir

assalam semua. alhamdulillah today dah masuk 24 hari berpantang.. dah selamat melahirkan baby yang sangat tembam n of course comey!! (mana ada org xnk ngaku anak dia comey..hihi)

btw

a 3.68 kg baby boy was born on 29 July 2013; 7.21 pm at Hospital Serdang via SVD with episiotomy..

 yeay. im out from mommy's tummy and ready to face the world!

day 2 - dah pandai mata bulat terkebil2 waktu sahur..

hmm nak cerita about my labor experience.. tunggu next entry la.. anak dah nangis plak.. see ya...

maternity photoshoot

at 31 week - approaching 8 months we have booked a maternity photo shoot studio..

for further information, google blog titian songo or facebook titian songo

dari awal dah plan nk buat photoshoot.. yela first time mom to be kan.. mmg excited. when u see ur tummy grows month by month. mmg one of miracle and god's creature. so i want to make it unlasted memory sblum perut ni kempis balik..hihihi..

mula2 tanya kawan2 yg ade dslr and pandai shoot ni.. ada yg bg suggestion hire photographer ni..

tp 400 utk 4 jam? erkk.. ibu mengandung tak larat la sampai 4 jam tu.. kalau wedding photoshoot ok la..

last2 cari maternity photoshoot dalam studio je.. jumpa blog sorg ni suggest photographer ni and gamba dia pun superb..one hour photoshoot with unlimited shoot

and me xde lah kene berdiri lama.. and gmba dia edit sekali and bagi cd. worth it..

tak dapat la gmba2 tu lg.. tp diorg dah upload few pics kt facebook.. ni la hasil nya dr kami yg x pandai pose.. sgt susah rupanye nk pose!!

more photos to be shared soon.. tunggu kitorg dpt cd nya nnt..hihih... btw all the props are prepared and brought by us. the photographer sgt sporting and shoot the best shot he can get..

so sesapa berminat leh contact studio tu k..hihiihh

4d scan

last sunday, we decided to go for 4d scan kat UMRA seksyen 13.. btw for those in shah alam i recommend you to go 3d 4d scan website and book online with Miss Jezzlyn, a freelance sonographer. bole tgk schedule dia. not everyday ada but certain day n time je..

pergi website ni   http://bayi-ibu.com/3d-4d-scan-malaysia/   to book online appointment with her..

and you can go here to read the review 3D 4D scan Malaysia


memang sangat berbaloi.. RM 120 - dapat cd with more than 10 pics and about 7 videos inside. one free printed photo and measurement and free doc consultation.

each session will take about 20 minutes depending to the baby... kalau baby bagi kerjasama kejap je.. n the sonographer sgt bagus and pandai pujuk baby..sedaya upaya dia akan cuba jugak utk baby tu show the faces..

like me,
umbilical cord betul2 depan muka baby. siap main2 lagi. tak mau kasi tunjuk muka.. miss tu suruh mengiring ke kanan and dia pun ketuk2 perut pujuk baby alihkan tali pusat.. memang berjaye..

baby plak ngantukkkk sangat.. menguap je.. tp beberapa kali pujuk plus mama dia pun sapu2 perut pujuk baby tali pusat pn dia tolak tepi. dpt la tgk muka dia.. first sekali dia tunjuk hidung dia dr sisi.. mancung.. ikut sapa tuuuuu..haha mesti la mama dia kan..hahhaa

tp miss tu nk sgt bg tgk muka dr depan btul2.. smpai baby pun kerut2 dahi.. marah kot kacau dia tidoo..

pastu mulut asyik nganga je.. lapar kot.. yelah dah pukul 12 kan sayang...

its really amazing to see god's creature inside your tummy..

btw the good news is the head is already downward and my plasenta has moved upside, not blocking the "exit" anymore..(plastenta is not low)

here is the pictures and video.. oh gender? lets leave it as a suprise...

 ini la kaki yg aktif bg sidekick kt mama dia

 tutup muka tak mo bg tgk..

 

 see the nose? mancung lah..

 senyum mimpi pe tu sayang.. sampai nampak gusi..

 show my face for a secs

 ketap bibir..

 huargh.ngantuknya.. smlm sy stay up..hiihhi

 

kerut2 dahi dah.. ok marah ye syg lama2 kaco eh

this is the two best videos.. yg lain sume video baby nguap je..

another  12 weeks to go.. tak sabar nk gigit2 baby ni,,hihih

27w

this is me at 26w 4d.. im bigger day by day.. baby inside is stronger day by day.. mcm nk terkeluar isi perut mama kene side kick.huhu